I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Rascal Flatts - What Hurts The Most

Tomorrow's violin exam. =S Oh man, I think I'm going to freak out right before the exam and my fingers will tremble and I'll play the notes too flat or too sharp and stop and fumble during the pieces and.. and... Oh wth. With all the prelim and A'level stress piled on me, I had to add this violin exam to the growing pile. -.- I hate taking music exams because after all that practice if you suddenly screw up (which is so freaking easy for violin), then all those time and effort spent is wasted. Rah. Just got to pray hard. :\ He will bring me through.

And I'm feeling flu-ish the whole day. Darn weather. Hot and cold, messing up my immune system. Heard some unexpected news yesterday; was quite shocked but at the same time can't be bothered. Its been such a long time ago, now whatever she does is no concern of mine. Ok, mom's nagging. Got to go. Urgh.

All it took was a smile.

Hands are red with your blame
Megaphone screaming my name
Whimpers someone I should've loved
Souls weeping above

I've seen what you're doing to me
Destroying puppet strings
To our souls

Micro waves me insane
A blaine cuts in your brain
Sounds like forks on a plate
Blackboard scratched with hate

I've seen what you're doing to me
Destroying puppet strings
To our souls

Muse - Micro Cuts

This song makes me cry. Matt Bellamy's voice is amazing. Though the song is pretty short, it's so full of emotion. I'm just sentimental this way I guess. Heh. With those awesome guitars and vocals, it just sends me to oblivion.

Ah, am getting really anxious for violin exam 1st Aug. I have to get my own pianist, and my pieces are still not smooth. I just wish to pass now, distinction is simply a bonus. So, shall just practise hard these 2 weeks and hope to pull it off.

Studies-wise, I better start mugging if I want As for my Alevels. But man, I'm addicted to Muse. I must listen to them at least once a day. So, I really need to study at the library to avoid the many temptations at home (TV, bed, computer..). Rah, I hate prelims!

But liberated of duties at last! Of shooting, mentoring.. YES! :)

All it took was a smile.

So tell me how you feel (I'm lonely)
Are you for real (so lonely)
Do you still think of me (I think of you)
Baby still (you only)
Do you dream of me at night (like I dream you all the time)
So lone

Oh, let me tell you how it feels (it's like everyday I die)
Wish I was dreamin but it's real (when I open up my eyes)
Oh, let me tell you how it feels (and don't see your pretty face)
I think that I will never love again

Babyface - The Loneliness

Been having vivid, scary dreams of late. I never want to go through those nightmares again. :| But I feel that I'm going to have to go through one tomorrow.

Sigh, can anyone get me out of this stupid situation?

All it took was a smile.

Pirates was great, great, GREAT! Everyone should go catch it. I love this sequel and I can't wait for the next one! I've loved Depp since Sleepy Hollow (or perhaps Edward Scissorhands), and now I just love him more. LOL. Captain Jack Sparrow. Ah, I'm mesmerized. His eyes, gosh. His wife is a damn lucky woman, haha.



I loved every bit of the movie, the hilarious fighting scenes, the amusing cannibals, Sparrow's wittiness, Davy Jones and his gross-looking crew, and his amazing playing on the organ with his tentacles, the sad love story about him, Will's heroism, kraken the sea-monster, the hot Keira Knightly as Elizabeth.. just every bit. Oh gosh, I can watch it again anytime. It's arguably one of the best movies I've watched.

Anyway, I cried during yesterday's episode of Grey's Anatomy, haha. I know the episode didn't have much to cry about, but I just couldn't help it when euthanasia was used on the old lady. :( It's just not good to take away a life just like that. But I just love Grey's Anatomy, it makes me laugh and cry with the characters. Well I can emphatise, so that makes me a compassionate person right? Heh.

Alright, off to bathe and watch some CSI. Man, theres only 15minutes of it left. -.- Damn bus 9, it takes super long to come and in the end I had to walk home from the MRT. Sheesh.

All it took was a smile.

While scanning through Postsecret.com, this postcard struck a chord in me



That's just freaky.

All it took was a smile.

You could be my unintended choice
To live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love

You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy
Mending broken
Pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended choice
To live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

Muse - Unintended

I can't believe I've only discovered Muse recently. Oh gosh, they are so, so good. But now I'm so addicted to their songs, I must listen to them at least once everyday. Which is not good because I have to log online and I'll be stuck at the computer for at least an hour. And prelims are approaching and I really, really need to start mugging because well, my common test results are horrendous. And somemore, there's violin exam 1st August (I'm so not looking forward to it); got to brush up on my scales and appregios.

Watching Pirates with Wendy and Lyd tomorrow! Finally. DEPP!

All it took was a smile.

You won't admit you love me
And so
How am I ever
To know
You only tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

A million times I ask you
And then
I ask you over
Again
You only answer
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

If you can't make your mind up
We'll never get started
And I don't wanna wind up
Being parted, broken hearted

So if you really love me
Say yes
But if you don't, dear,
Confess
And please don't tell me
Perhaps, perhaps, perhaps

Cake - Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps

Emotions and mixed feelings jumbled up inside of me. I don't know what to feel, how to feel. I'm stressed out, but over the wrong reasons. I should feel fortunate, but I don't. I regret, but it's too late. What I advise others not to, now I contemplate.

Oh WTH. I don't feel too well.

All it took was a smile.

This time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore

On my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause you know,
you know, you know

Nickelback - Far Away

:) I love this song. I feel emotionally connected with these lyrics. Don't you love it when a song simply reflects exactly how you're feeling? It comforts me when I know that someone else is feeling the same way. That I'm not alone.

The National Library's a great, great place to do some homework while chatting with a friend. Went there today with Lydia :) I love the 5th floor study lounge, especially when we get a seat by the glasspane where you can look out and stone when you're sick of books.

Ok, its already Friday tomorrow. Gosh, another week has flown past! A week nearer to prelims. =S Its so, so scary.

All it took was a smile.

:D Been seeing alot of my eyecandy around school lately. Muahaha. I'm happy!

Anyway WC is over. :'( Nothing else to look forward to. But it has disrupted my biological clock; I can't seem to sleep early at night unless I'm dead tired. And my afternoon naps are more frequent. Which is not good at all. Because when I sleep in the afternoon, I never wake up to my alarm. Rah.

Anyway, here's an interesting video of Zidane's headbutt:



Met up with Wendy and Lydia to eat steamboat at Marina! It was really fun, we even had live prawns which were still jumping and we were wondering how to kill them in the most humane way. And after that we went to P.S. Macs to chill before going home.



Ok, off to watch Singapore Idol!

All it took was a smile.

Met up with Desflin, Siti, Ho Ying and Phyllis today! x) Siti is still as crazy as ever, if not even crazier. (So this is what MJ does to their students..) Oh gosh, I miss them all so, so much! So glad we finally meet up. We went to Cine, ate at Galilee&Friends cafe, took neos, and met up with Phil before watching Superman! Brandon Routh is just hotness!


Oh man, just look at him!

And the movie rocked, although its pretty long. At one point in the movie, Siti actually screamed?! It was hilarious. And its not even a horror movie, its Superman for goodness sake. LOL. After that we went to coffee bean to slack and talk, and more crap from Siti, esp. with her Mimi game. And took a few group pictures before saying our teary goodbyes. Waiting for Phil to send the pictures, heh. Its sad that we can only meet up with Desflin again next year, when she comes back to Singapore during her holiday. :( But I just love all of 'em! Its been a great day! :D

All it took was a smile.

I'm simply smiling to myself silly.

Those simple gestures are enough to make me grin like a cheshire cat. :)

Those eyes, gosh.




Alright enough of incoherent ramblings. Meeting up with Desflin, Siti, HoYing, Phil and others tomorrow! I MISS THEM SO, SO MUCH! Haven't met up in agessss, and I really can't wait to catch up with them. AHH. I'm just so crazy now. :D :D

Go Italy! Though I like France, I think Italy's gonna win. But who knows? This world cup is so unpredictable.

All it took was a smile.

Clarissa, my 11-year bestest friend and still more years to come! :D

Panorama was really better than expected. Seats were great (thanks to Mrs Neo!), company was great, esplanade had amazing lighting, and the performances were pure entertaining! Kudos to all the performers! It was a totally different TPJC experience. But heard this panorama was really costly. 10,000 bucks just to book the esplanade? I think they made losses on this concert, but nevertheless it was a good one.

After that went to have a drink with Clarissa, at Cheers of all places. LOL. But it was the company that mattered more. Had a heart-to-heart talk, which we haven't had in EONS! Really made me reflect and think alot; just had this nostalgia feeling after talking to her. JC life has really shown a lot of sides to people; I've realised how sheltered and protected we've been in PL. And in the years to come when we reach university and go out to work, I bet its going to be much worse than JC. Oh well, that's life.

Italy vs Germany 2-0! WOOOOT! Tonight: France vs Portugal. I bet its going to be an interesting one.

All it took was a smile.

Singing marathon was a BLAST! It was so nice meeting up with all '04 batch people and the previous batches, everyone is so pretty now :) And it was fun singing the songs and echo-ing through Milennia Walk, we were really loud. And it felt great singing for the Lord! I guess everyone's voices have changed after today's singing session. We even had to sing twice, once with instruments and the other acapella. Ms Jenny Koh said we sang like a train. LOL. Anyway the marathon's ending tomorrow 1pm, so if you still want to visit PL's 90-hr singing marathon you can drop by anytime by then, even 2am or 4am because they are still singing! lol. It was also nice seeing all my little juniors mature already! :) Fond, fond GB memories.

Alright, now I'm addicted to Don't Stop Me Now by Queen. An oldie, but a really catchy one.

Tonight I'm gonna have myself a real good time
I feel alive and the world I'll turn it inside out - yeah
And floating around in ecstasy
So don't stop me now don't stop me
'Cause I'm having a good time having a good time

I'm a shooting star leaping through the sky
Like a tiger defying the laws of gravity
I'm a racing car passing by like Lady Godiva
I'm gonna go go go
There's no stopping me

I'm burnin' through the sky yeah
Two hundred degrees
That's why they call me Mister Fahrenheit
I'm trav'ling at the speed of light
I wanna make a supersonic man out of you

Don't stop me now I'm having such a good time
I'm having a ball
Don't stop me now
If you wanna have a good time just give me a call
Don't stop me now ('Cause I'm having a good time)
Don't stop me now (Yes I'm havin' a good time)
I don't want to stop at all

I just LOVE this song. And I'm still pretty bummed over Brazil not getting into the finals. Sigh. I even thought its going to be Brazil vs Argentina in the end and now both teams are out. URGH! Now its just like Euro cup, only the European countries are left. -.-

All it took was a smile.

DEPRESSED. BRAZIL IS OUT! I can't believe Brazil's not in the finals! URGH.

Just really sad. But it was a good game. Heh. France is good.

Bye Dida, bye Fatty, bye Donkey cutie, bye Kaka.

All it took was a smile.